Toddy's Thoughts

A series of unfortunate events

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 16:23:10 GMT

Hi

[Rant]

A tough decision at the office that will might as well dictate what I'll be doing for the next year

How hard it is to make ends meet at the house every month

Flooded house, losing almost half of our furniture, 2/3 of my cards and almost my entire collection of video game magazines and posters.

Tricycle Accident

5 stitches to the forehead and a subconjunctival hemorrhage

Higher stress level because of new position

How far away next Friday is from today

Haay :(

[/Rant]

[Thanks]

Love <3 (uber thanks *hug*)

Parents

Alimol boys and Quality team

Magic

Comics

Knorr Chicken Noodle Soup

[/Thanks]

LSS Time

Tue, 01 Sep 2009 09:03:14 GMT

I miss you
by: Incubus

To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.

**

Random thoughts:

52 was win

General's Chicken was nyum

District 9 was kinda weird (but I want the robot there)

It was nice seeing Aa again

Sharmz will be back this Thursday

So much stuff to do at the office.

Time management fail

To apply or not to apply?

Payday this Thursday. Finally.

I miss you already :(

Can't wait for Friday :)

Unfit to Work

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 20:35:04 GMT

Hi

Wow it's been a while

I was given as unfit to work by the clinic tonight. Didn't really expect that (I'm feeling perfectly fine except for some cough and a sore throat) but yeah, I'll take time away from the office any day :) Thanks to Manna and Jai for the acting tips *evil grin*

Saw the Ateneo-La Salle game yesterday with Maja <3 and some of my blockmates (yeah, that's why I have a sore throat). I think that was the longest time I fell in line since I got my NBI clearance. I was hoping for an awesome game (the first game ended in OT) but after being blown away by Adamson during our previous game, I didn't expect too much.

Was actually a little disappointed with the way the game turned out. It wasn't even close. Ateneo is just too good. I'm giving our team prolly two more years to be a top-tier team again.

Despite the sub-par game, the company was awesome :) And I kinda missed watching a game live so yeah I think it was still worth standing in line for :)

Moving on..

Applied for a TM post for a collections account in our Marikina office. Kinda hesistant really but yeah, sometimes you have to learn to step out of your comfort zones. Hope things go well.

Been playing Monster Hunter Freedom: Unite on the PSP for the past few months. The game is ok (but sometimes frustrating) when playing solo, but is epically awesome when playing with three other people.

Just got to G-rank like 10 minutes ago. Akantor is hella annoying that's why killing him solo is very, very satisfying :)

Bora was epic win :) Can't wait for our next great escape <3

Oh Aa's back. Will be meeting him later. And I heard Sharmz is coming back this month too. Yay :D

There's really a lot I want to talk about but I kinda feel lazy

Tulog muna hehehe

Let's be heroes

Fri, 29 May 2009 05:11:05 GMT

Hi

The title of the post has nothing to do with I'm about to write about lol I heard the line yesterday from Varsity Blues on HBO and I found it catchy :)

Wow, it's been a while huh?

I actually have several drafts of posts I wanted to place here in my PC at the office but I never got to to do so.

Got a good night sleep last night. I really miss sleeping at night. And waking up the next day without having to think about work. Good times :)

Speaking of work, lots of changes have been going on. Starting two weeks ago, our job description as Quality Coaches have been somewhat changed. Instead of the usual 40 monitor/coaching/upload, we now have to do 60 monitors. But the coaching has been taken away from us *insert negative reactions here* and given to the TMs. The only time we get to coach is when we're handling Abay (new-hires).

Might be chosen as an apprentice to the Quality Supervisor position. Kinda hesitant though. Well at least I'll get bigger BOE hehe :)

Clients are coming in this week. I'll have training (together with Z, Onats and Jai) with some folks from Microsoft regarding the new Quality Attributes we will be using for monitoring this coming Monday. Kinda happy with how that project turned out (been working on that for the past few months).

I really miss simpler times at the office. Haaay. Everything seems so stressful as of late and everyones morale seems to be at an all time low. Even the eternal optimist, Jai, is starting to show signs of being unhappy :(

Watching the NBA playoffs is one of the few things that has been keeping me entertained for the past weeks. Out of the four teams left, I'm betting on the Lakers to win it all. I just want Kobe to win a championship with him leading the team. LBJ, Superman and Carmelo still have their careers in front of them so I'm sure at least one of them will get to win one before they retire. Kinda disappointed that the Celtics lost though :(

Really want to play at the next Regional Qualifiers. Robbie and I almost made it last year when we played (both of us finished 6-2 and almost made the top 8). Will probably use R/B if ever I do get to play. Like what Evan Erwin said, what's not to love about this deck? It has dudes, burn and dudes that burn! hehe And its like the only deck I've been playing with competitively so yeah, why change what works (I guess that's one question a lot of people woud like to ask the higher ups at the office)

The Beerkada strip I read yesterday was win :D "No I'm never gonna dance again..." HAHAHAHAHA

Really missing my HS friends :( JB just left for the US last April, Sharmz and Debie don't seem to have any plans of going back, Patty's busy with Med School and I don't know when Aa's coming back. Haay

Oh, I think effective Monday, the MRT's gonna run for 24 hrs now. This is something I think they should've done long ago. But yeah, that's win :)

Looking back at this time last year, I would definitely say that everything is waaaaay better. Sunshine on my window :)

I have a feeling that I'll have a long week ahead of me so I'll definitely enjoy the weekend :D

Tue, 10 Mar 2009 02:05:23 GMT

Hi

Like what I said, it's been a while :)

I kinda missed posting. Trust me, there were a loooot of times wherein I really wanted to post, but as always, laziness gets the better of me. I even have some drafts in my PC at work that I never got to post.

Anyway...

Will probably be talking about random stuff here so please bear with me...

First some MRT rants

Yes that's right, MRT rants.

For most of my college years, I almost spent everyday (sometimes even weekends because of ROTC, sieges at Colle, tambay at Char's house) riding the MRT. I was very thankful that it existed otherwise, I had to take a 2 hour + bus ride going to Taft. If everyday life was an MMORPG, I would probably have MRT Riding Mastery Lvl 10 or something and the daily MRT grind was already part of my everyday life.

After not riding the MRT on a daily basis, you start to notice (well at least I did) a lot of things that people do and some of them can really get annoying. Before, I really didn't pay a lot of attention to these things because I was either reviewing for a quiz, sleeping, or talking with one of my classmates who I rode with. Here are just some things that I (re)noticed:

- May bawas ba sa pamasahe mo pag sa may pinto ka tatayo? Lagi kasing nagsisiksikan mga tao dun eh. Hell I do this, but only in cases where I only have to take the train for like 2 stations. Some people ride at North Ave, stand near the door and get off at Magallanes! Madami po'ng bumaba dun at hindi kayo mahihirapan :)
- The beep sound doesn't mean "ipilit mo pa ang sarili mo at itulak ang tao sa harap mo"
- Bakit ang hilig sumalubong ng mga taong sasakay sa mga bumaba? Magkamaganak ba sila?
- What's the point of handrails if they also move when the train brakes hard?
- There should be a dress code for the people riding the trains
- What's the point of bag inspections if all the guards do is wag their little stick and pretend to look at your bag for 5 seconds? Do they have like X-ray vision or built-in metal detectors in their heads? Sure it might eat up a lot of time but hell, that's the security of the passengers we're talking about.
- They should not make cards that don't have designs or at least let it have a really big arrow showing how to insert the card. Kumakain siya ng tanga pramis (ang sama ko ata sorry).
- Pag na-reject ang ticket at 5 beses mo na sinusubukan, wag na ipilit.
- They should have those automated ticket dispensers like the ones in the LRT 2 line. Well at least those that work properly.
- People should understand what the hell Exact Fare means.
- There should be male-only carts as well. (Or maybe not)
- The trains should only stay at the last stations (North and Taft) for a specific amounts of time. Hindi yan bus o jeep. Hindi sila kelangan punuin agad. Madami pang station at madami pang tao ang naghihintay
- Skip-trains as you're best friends (especially if you're riding from Cubao)
- Why don't they play music instead of those annoying commercials that repeats itself after every station? Pag sa Taft ka sumakay at sa North pa ang baba mo, ma me-memorize mo yung mga yun eh.
- Most of the people in the train are either: texting, listening to music, sleeping or talking with someone,staring blankly outside the window. (well as if naman meron ka pang ibang pwedeng gawin diba?)

Wala na ko maisip hehehe sorry if that didn't make any sense lol

Moving on...

I guess one of the biggest news for this week (sorry gasgas na) is the death of Francis Magalona. I'm sure that within the weekend, this was at least part of a conversation you had or someting you mentioned in your blog. Well true enough, he will surely be missed and his passing away will be a big loss to our industry.

I don't know. But everytime I hear/see/read about people dying from Cancer, it makes me feel weird and at the same time, I feel like a part of me dies as well. I guess that this is because of the fact that my mom was diagnosed with the said disease last year. I'm extremely thankful that she pwnd and overcame it but still, I can't help but worry and feel a little bit fearful when I hear other people succumbing to the said disease.

Was talking with Ansel last night and I told him about what happened to Francis M. His reaction: "Cancer nanaman?" He lost his grandfather eariler this year to it. We were jokingly talking about the fact that when you ask a person who just lost someone about what happened, he/she will at least 50% of the time say "Cancer eh" (the other 50% would probably say atake sa puso, aksidente, old age or some disease that's hard to pronounce).

My mom really inspired me. She showed me how one (through faith and of course a little help from medication) can overcome a disease such a this. I pray that her good heatlh continues and hope that someday, people will get to find a cure to this disease.

Moving on...

Don't really want to talk about work too much. But reading the status' message of other people can be really fun sometimes hehe

Embrace Positivism says Jai's status message. He has been pretty stressed out for the past weeks and I think he noticed I wasn't my usual self last night so he kept on hammering this thought into me all night. Hehe. Thanks Jai :)

Last week, Jeri lent me After Eden, a Filipino-authored graphic novel. It's been quite some time now since I lost myself in a good read so I decided to give it a shot. The book was ok (probably a 7/10 for me) but the latter part wasn't as good as the first few parts though.

I also saw You Changed My Life last Friday. Yeah it was ok. I guess if there's one thing that I like about Filipino movies, it's the fact that the realities they have in the film are ones that are closer to us and makes it easier to relate to. No, don't me wrong. I don't see myself as John Llyod Cruz. I admit, he looks a little bit better pero mga 5% lang. Wahahahha

If my everyday life was a movie or a TV series, I can only imagine how boring my weekdsys at the office would be lol

I guess sometimes, you really need to top-deck the way Gabriel Nassif did at Pro-Tour: Kyoto. That was really awesome.

Aa! Nasaan ka ba kasi :(

Nauubusan na ko nang masasabi...

Hmmm... I guess the hard part begins again :( But then again, if it's for the better, I'll try to bear with it no matter how hard it is...

One day at a time.

LSS

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 19:04:37 GMT

Hi

It's been a while

Too lazy/sleepy/tired to post something coherent but I felt like I had to post something.

So yeah, this has been my LSS for the past few weeks

Miracle - Paramore

I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and I
When this memory fades
I'm gonna make sure it's replaced
With chances taken
Hope embraced
And I have I told you

I'm not going
Cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
When it might save you

We've learned to run from
Anything uncomfortable
We've tied our pain below and no one ever has to know
That inside we're broken
I try to patch things up again
To calm my tears and kill these fears
But have I told you, have I?

I'm not going
Cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
When it might save you

It's not faith if, if you use your eyes
Oh why

Get it right this time (this time)
Let's leave this all behind
Oh why

We'll get it right this time
It's not faith if you're using your eyes
Oh why

I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and...

I don't want to run from anything uncomfortable
I just want, no
I just need this pain to end right here

I'm not going
Cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
Cause it might save you

Yeah, it might save you
Oh, it might save you

It's not faith if, if you use your eyes
If you use your eyes
If you use your eyes

Sun, 11 Jan 2009 20:30:53 GMT

Sooo.. there...

First off I would like to greet everyone (delayed much?) a Happy New Year :)

Was actually planning to do a 'year-in-review' post but I don't know. Parang di ko siya masyado feel.

Well, 2008 was very memorable and it was definitely one of the toughest years so far. I don't really want to go into much details but I guess I've learned a lot from last year. Once again, I was faced with the reality that things won't always go the way you'd hope them to (although I think I learned how to cope with these situations better). I also realized that sometimes, I think you need to get hurt (I've had my fair-share of tears last year). I mean what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger right? (theoretically) and every hurt that you go through will always teach you a valuable lesson.

I also learned how one person can really make a difference in your life :)

I guess just like a game of Magic, you should just try to win with the situation you are in (or in the game's case, the cards you currently have in your hand and those which are in play). You can't always expect to have a favorable match-up or always draw the cards you need. You also need to think every play and situation thoroughly before doing anything (according to the Pros there's always a correct move in every situation). Sometimes you also have to be patient and to try to wing through whatever is coming at you until you top-deck the card you need or until the opportunity arises for you to win (Chance!). And of course, a little luck wouldn't hurt as well.

As for resolutions, well, I have some in mind and I think I definitely need to work on some of my behavior immediately.

Compared to last year, I think that I'm definitely happier (I think this is the happiest I've been in quite some time :D ) and a little more mature (nakx!).

Although di pa din ata ako tumangkad :(

Thanks to all those who made my 2008 fun :) Let's make this year even better !

And like what Hayley said somehow everything's gonna fall right into place.

So yeah, lets go ! :D

One day at a time :)

Meme time :)

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 04:27:05 GMT

Taken from Maja's Multiply site :)

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?

* Raise my parents

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

* *looks at previous LJ post regarding resolutions* errr.. parang wala ata

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

* Ate Anne (Girlfriend ni Kuya Ivan) gave birth to Rinoa :)

4. Did anyone close to you die?

* Sadly, my Tita Tess :(

5. What countries did you visit?

* None :( Had a couple of awesome team buildings though :D

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?

* A vacation, sleep, money, discipline, time to spend with the people close to me.

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- 3/19/08 - The date I got confirmed as a QC
- 8/31/08 - GP Manila!
- some day in Jan of 08, 8/22/08, 9/17/08

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

* I'm not good in answering these kinds of questions :( Being able to support my family I guess?

9. What was your biggest failure?

* Feeling ko madami eh

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

* Got sick a couple of months back. Even though it was just a flu, it was good enough to keep me out of the office for almost a week.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

* A Sony Digicam and my RDW deck

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

* My Mom - For staying strong despite everything :)

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

* Mine. I think. Basta...

14. Where did most of your money go?

* Shopwise, Meralco, Manila Water, Bayan Tel, Globe, Smart Bro, Destiny Cable, Hospital Bills, Magic :D

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

* Weekends with her, Pay days

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?

* That's what you get and Hallelujah by Paramore

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? Definitely happier
ii. thinner or fatter? I think medyo tumaba ako hehehe
iii. richer or poorer? Hmmm... I guess medyo parehas lang. Eventhough I had better pay this year, I also had a lot of expenses :(

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

* Sleep, learning how to properly use Excel , time with people who are close to me

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

* Procrastinating, worrying about senseless things, letting my emotions get the better of me (but was that really bad?), paying bills :(

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

* For the third straight year, I'll be at the office on Christmas eve and Christmas day :(

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?

* I think so :)

23. How many one-night stands?

* Err...

24. What was your favorite TV program?

* Didn't have time to watch a lot of TV this year but I guess Bubble Gang and The Magic Show ! hehehe

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

* Hmmm... Parang wala naman

26. What was the best book you read?

* This year lang ba yung Deathly Hallows? Parang yun pa yung last book na nabasa ko eh :(

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

* Songs by Paramore and Secondhand Serenade :)

28. What did you want and got?

* My mom to overcome cancer, something to look forward to

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

* Madami eh. Saw a lot of movies this year. But Ironman, Bolt, Juno (this ba yun?), The Dark Knight and Wall-E would be among the top

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

* 21. I honestly don't remember what I did. I think I just treated the Quality Team to pizza and had dinner with my family

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

* I really can't think of anything specific. I'm just happy and content with the way things turned out :) Wag masyadong greedy :)

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?

* Hmm.. Miron look? hahaha I don't know. Didn't get a lot of new clothes this year. I just wore what I had back in college to work lol

34. What kept you sane?

* Her, family, friends, weekends, Magic, music, movies, playing the PSP, daydreaming

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

* Keira Knightley pa din :)

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

* Errr I don't really care about politics lol

37. Who did you miss?

* HS 'kada especially Aa, Kuya, Ethel, Jet and Dette during the latter part of the year and some other people

38. Who was the best new person you met?

* More of a reaquaintance actually :) I'm also happy that I got to know Manna, Jeri, Dette and Logan better.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:

* Sometimes you have to get hurt to become a better person
* Mahirap magpalaki ng magulang

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Somehow everything's gonna fall right into place

- Taken from Hallelujah by Paramore

Sat, 06 Dec 2008 20:27:03 GMT

Everyday, whenever I'm riding the jeepney from work (since it's quite a long ride mostly because of the traffic), there are these instances wherein my mind just flies away and comes back with some ideas that I think would be blogable. I've wanted to post for a couple of weeks now but, as always I've always been lazy lol Sooo... I might have forgotten some of the things I was meaning to post

(ang haba ng disclaimer eh 'no?)

Anyway...

It's been a little stressful at the office as of late.

Every fiscal quarter, there's this competition between the sites that support Xbox measured by the quality of customer surveys that they get. The winner, gets a nice amount of $$$ and bragging rights, of course. Last quarter, we actually won but this quarter, we're not really performing as well as we'd hope. For the previous quarters, this was not that of a big deal but right now, it actually is. See, there are 4 sites that support Xbox and at the end of this quarter (roughly first week of Jan), it might actually be cut down to 2. And of course, one of the biggest factors that they will consider is the quality of the surveys that the site gets. Having said this, there's really a lot pressure on our part (the QC's) on top of things happening on the floor. Nakakapagod na lang talaga minsan sa dami ng mga ginagawa :(

I think na kaya naman eh. Para lang siyang Magic. Yung mga tipong alam mo na kaya ng deck mo manalo pero kelangan talagang dumiskarte ng malupet. And of course, a little luck wouldn't hurt. Well worst-case scenario, malilipat kami sa ibang account (or mag eestablish ng bago). Even if this happens, I still get to keep the pay I'm getting right now (pero ayoko naman maging agent na ulit 'no) but one of my worries is the sched. Right now, 'di 'to problema dahil ako ang nag aayos ng schedules ng team lol Hopefully na lang, I do get to keep my Fri-Sat off.

I'll keep you posted (uy feeling may nagbabasa ng LJ!) about this :)

Magic naman...

Drafting is really addicting lol Haven't been able to do MJ Drafts (congrats btw so MJ, kasal niya sa lunes!) for the past few weeks as we (the alimol boys and I) have been joining sanctioned Drafts sa Galle. Played 2 weeks ago sa Draftavaganza (where Mao, my guildmate, beat me :( But at least I found out what his real name was :D ) and kanina sa side event sa tourney. Ang fun talaga hehehe

Gold Rush on the 27th and the format is really neat. Parang Nat's. 6 rounds of draft, 6 rounds of standard. Excited na ko !

Moving on...

Met up with Manikineku the other week :) And they really enjoyed Twilight :D

Pictures here

Will be getting the other half of my 13th month pay this coming week. I seriously hope I don't get taxed sa much as I did last payday as I really need to shop for gifts and for personal stuff and to pay the bills as well. Sana talaga malaki makuha ko this time around :(

Hmm..

Got to log-in to my RO account a couple of weeks back (took me around 30 or so minutes to figure out what my username was and to remember my password lol). Since the servers merged, just wanted to check on how my characters were doing. Sadly, I had to change Toddy's name but the other characters retained theirs :) I don't think I'll be able to play again though. Busy talaga (and I think my equips are so outdated) :(

Mejo tinatmad na ko mag post hahaha

Reminders to myself:
- Get gifts!
- Shop for new clothes
- Meet up with JB
- Meet up with Punky
- Get KH: Chain of Memories
- Get a hair cut
- Save one friday/saturday to do groceries with mom
- Check with HR re: Leave conversions
- Practice for the Gold Rush (RDW baby)
- Withdraw money before the banks close

Ayun...

One day at a time :)

Colorgenics

Tue, 25 Nov 2008 01:25:20 GMT

Got this from the Multiply sites of my Carmine teammates

This is a simple personality assessment developed by someone named Paul Goldin. All you need to do is to click on different colors, based on your desired order, then you get results :)

Here's what I got:

You are a very emotional and sensitive individual. Your life and love of life is dominated by your emotions - you have great feeling towards your fellow man and you are always full of enthusiasm but be careful, you tend to let your heart rule your head and this being so, you could be easily hurt - as perhaps you may have indeed been hurt in the past.

You don't really give in. You follow your beliefs and ideals to the bitter end. You are the personification of stubbornness and whatever may transpire, right or wrong, you refuse to compromise or make concessions.

You are very demanding - and insisting on total involvement but you do not reciprocate with the same depth of feeling. However, it could well be that maybe an unprecedented surprise is awaiting you in the near future. For just as one whilst paddling in the sea, could flounder into a whirlpool, so you may be drawn into a loving situation that has high emotional demands - and you could well respond with a depth of emotion that you never even dreamed that you possessed.

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

You wish to safeguard yourself against criticism or conflict and to embed yourself in a protected situation. You are a difficult person to relate to and very difficult to please.

Hmmm... I don't really agree with some of the things that came out (am I demanding? and sometimes I easily give in, and people who know me better know that I'm not difficult to please), but the first paragraph (especially the first and last sentences), SAKTO hehehe I may not seem like it but yeah, ganun ako :)

But "you have great feeling towards your fellow man " sounded a little ghey lol (well if taken literally nyehehe)

The first block I chose was a no-brainer for me (Favorite color yeah!) hehehe

Try it yourself: www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

Random Rave

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 23:44:18 GMT

Hi

This just made my day

It may be old news to some, but I only found out about it yesterday (thanks to Ansel).

This game (I think) covers the events between KH and KH 2. Been wanting to play this game but it came out on the GBA when it was originally released (like 4-5 yrs ago?). Now, its going to be released on the *pause* PS2! Ha! Take that Next-gen consoles! (wala pa kasing pambili lol)

And after around 3-5 months of catching dust here in my room, I'm glad my PS2 still works :)

The fanboy inside me screams YAY! 8D

Pardon the gibberish lol

Feverish

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 22:00:54 GMT

Hi

I just realized again today how much I hate being sick. It's been quite some time since I felt like this and it really sucks. Been lying in my bed for most parts of the day (and night) and I just feel so weak to stand up and do anything. It took me a whole lot of effort to stand up and turn the PC on (sobrang bored na at sobrang sawa na ata ako matulog hahaha) despite my PC being like 2 feet away from my bed.

Feeling ko nahawa ako kay Chok (my little cousin) since she was sick for most parts of last week. That + stress and lack of rest perhaps. owel

At least I didn't have to go to work last night (but was that really a good thing?). Will prolly have myself checked-up within the day, and hopefully, makapasok na'ko mamaya or at least tmrw morning. Ayoko matambakan ng backlog sa opis :(

I would like to congratulate Engr. Lawrence Follero for passing the ECE Board Exam! Oye! Sagot mo na next na draft na'tin hahahahha

Elves dominate PT:Berlin lol oras nang maghalungkat ng mga trash cards para hanapin ang mga common elves from Onslaught at ang mga Glimpse of Nature at Chord Of Calling hehehe

Hmmm... Some of my Guildmates from AE are planning to play RO again. I think sometime this month, magkakaron ng server-merge wherein isang server na lang ang meron sa pRO. I must admit, I do miss playing RO especially WoE'ing with AE. Buti na lang naalala ko pag ung password ng Toddy account (di ko lang sure yung Kafra Pass though D: ). Owel, will prolly need to re-install RO (which reminds me that I also need a new video card for my PC) and will try to play from time to time pero malamang super bano na ko nyahahaha :D

[shop] Half of our 13th month pay will be included in the next pay-out yay ! [/shop]

And ..

Thanks for everything. Haay :)

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 04:40:30 GMT

Hi

It's been a while I guess

Hmmm... Was planning to post something the other day (just for the heck of doing so) but somehow I felt that something was going to happen and I had to wait for that something before posting. And true enough, I was right.

Don't really want to to go into much details but looking at my last post, hmm I guess a lot of what I want to say is already there. I can prolly just copy-paste a segment (or maybe even the whole post) to give you an idea of what I'm feeling right now.

Hmm... Ewan...

I guess it's a little less painful (by like less than 5%) this time around. But then again I could be wrong. And... Hmm... I just don't like this feeling.

If there was one thing I missed though during my last post (thanks for making me realize that) it was failing to mention all the good things that happened. But that would take make this post extremely long (and I'm lazy) . So I prolly won't. But sometimes words are simply not enough to express something (cheesy much?). And that thought applies into this situtaion. I'll just leave it at that for now.

***

On a happier note, I would like to congratulate Manna for getting promoted to a TM post. Naks TM! :D

Hmmm.. with that said, it makes me realize how much people the team has lost over the past few months. First Jet, then Chat, the Dette, Onats is a back-up trainer so he has very little involvement with Quality right now, and now Manna. Although we prolly will be hanging out everyday, parang iba pa din na hindi na siya part ng team. Hmm... Makes me sad for some reason kasi parang yung mga malapit sakin ang nawawala (not that di kami close sa isa't isa but you know what I mean and I'll be particular with Jet, Dette and Manna for this one). And even though we are getting new folks (a lot of them as a matter of fact), iba pa din eh.

And I just hate that fact that when the numbers go down, everyone looks and turns to Quality for blaiming purposes and action plans. But when the numbers are good or go up, wala lang. Kebs lang. We won the NSAT award again last quarter (we didn't get the award money though for other reasons that not quality-related) pero wala man lang "good job quality!" or not even a pat on the back (well from ops that is). Like what Jeri said, its just frustrating sometimes.

***

I think I need/want a Grande Choco Cream Chip from Starbucks or a nice bar of Nestle Crunch right about now. Comfort food lol

***

Like what N*Sync said, I'll just hang around and find some things to do to get my mind of missing you. And I guess playing Magic is the perfect distraction. Been Drafting with the Alimol Boys at Jerome's place (MJ Draft yeh!) for the past two weeks and I tell you nakakaadict siya. Kasalanan 'to lahat ni Robbie hehe And for the time being, I guess this is one of the things that I'll have to look forward to every week. Oh and I think some of the games on the PSP that I've been waiting for (Star Ocean yay) are going to get released soon. That should serve as good enough distraction as well.

***

Haaaay...

Letting go ~~was~~ is something I'm not really good at

I guess the hard part begins again =/

[/emo]

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 00:32:21 GMT

Hi

I guess I'm still too overwhelmed with emotions to be able to post something coherent...

Like what Chiao said in his rant at the AE boards, all good things must come to an end. I guess its a sad reality that everyone eventually has to face at some part of their life. Knowing how complicated things were, I knew at some point that it eventually would and I had to learn to let go. I was hoping for a better outcome, but that was too selfish of me to think that way. And somehow a part of me believes that this is the right thing to do. I guess this was so much more than just a 'good thing' to me. It was something very, very special. And I think that's why it hurts.

I just really didn't expect it to hurt this much.

At the back of my mind I guess I knew something like this was bound to happen and I thought I was prepared. But I guess I was wrong.

There are so many other things that I want to say. But I just can't find the right words to say them. In time, I guess.

And now the hard part begins.

August

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 01:47:22 GMT

Hi

Its been a while I guess...

Almost every other day, there's a part of me that wants to post what I have in mind but something always tends to come up which prevents me from doing so.... Well for about a week this month my PC was busted so I think I had a valid excuse that time

Hmm...

I guess August was full of goodbyes on my end ...

First it was Jet who resigned from work (he'll be going to the UK to take on a caregiver job)

Then it was Ansel who went back to the US (he was here in the country for roughly about a month)

Then Aa went took a job on board a luxury/cruise ship whatever (I guess this was the one that hurt and surprised me the most)

and then just recently, Chat resgined as well (she was already rendering her 2 weeks notice but no one knew up until her last day. She's planning to study law)

Haaay...

Makes me feel that I wish I had spent more time with them when I had the chance... but then again, like what Chat said, no goodbyes just "see you next times". But when will that next time be =/

And I guess deep inside maybe a part of me already said (or is trying to) say goodbye to someone as well....

Anyway

Work-wise, it was kinda stressful... handled A-bay (new-hires fresh out of training) for about 3 weeks, That plus doing the VA is not a very good combination

Clients are also visiting next week so everyone needs to have their best foot forward

hmmm minsan parang nakakapagod na lang :( And our weekly meetings (something I used to look forward to) are now starting to become weekly spot-checks and sermon sessions...

owel...

Had to reformat my pc (well it was Let who actually did it, since noob ako) a few weeks ago... Lost some pictures and the savechats in YM =/

Magic-wise it was a good month I guess, but I'll be talking about that on another post hehehe

Now I know why I always why I should not break that rule of mine. I've always had a feeling that if I did, things would get complicated. But I really didn't expect it to be this complicated. But, despite everything, I can all honestly say that I am very, very happy :)

Hmmm.. have a lot of pictures to upload pa pala... nakakatamad =/

Haaaay.... sana Friday na

Oh and before I forget, I would like to congratulate my agents Bayo, Darryl, Jayson, Jen, Carlo and Mommy J for getting promoted to Tier 2 :) You rock guys !

Meme time! :D

Thu, 21 Aug 2008 00:58:31 GMT

Was planning to post but I saw this and decided to do this instead :D

Taken from aesprika <3

If I understood correctly, you should pick a band and then answer the following questions using their songs (I think)

Sooo....

I choose Incubus

1. Are you male or female? - Azwethinkweiz! o.o
2. Describe yourself. - A certain shade of green ;)
3. What do people feel when they're around you? - Megalomaniac(s)! :D
4. How would you describe your previous relationship? - The Warmth
5. -
6. Where would you want to be now? - Here in my room
7. How do you feel about love? - Love Hurts (lol)
8. What's your life like? - Circles
9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish? - I wish you Were here
10. Say something wise. - I miss you D:

I also tag everyone who gets to read this lol

***

Will post soon... Have a whole effin lot on my mind right now =/

Soup

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 00:44:10 GMT

Hi

Been meaning to post for the x number of days but I guess didn't have time (thanks to BoF 3). And for some reason, it seems that I forgot what I wanted to post lol

Anyway, here's what I've been up to for the past three days:

Friday:
- VA in the morning
- Food trip with Manna, Jeri, Dette and Logan sa Loop
- Lalabas dapat with Ansel but tinamaan ng antok so natulog na lang
- Dinner + Mummy nung gabi sa Trinoma :D
- Rain

Saturday:
- Went to meet up with Aa, JB, Ansel and Mark sa GH. Parang matagal na kami di nakakalabas ng ganito.
- Magic ng onti
- Ikot ikot sa GH
- Camwhoring lol
- Saw Mummy. Again. Well it was a choice between that The Dark Knight (na napanood na naming lahat except for Aa, at third time ko na yun if ever) or A Very Special Love. Asa naman na mapapapanood ko sila nung kay John Lloyd hahaha
- Loooooooong walk papauntang Santolan MRT (nostalgia much?)
- Went to Trinoma with Aa and JB para mag ikot
- (insert rain here)
- Balik sa GH tambay onti at kung anu anu pa
- Went home around 12 (I needed to wake up 8 the next day because...)

Sunday:
- .... National Qualifers part 2
- Met up with Robbie (breakfast of champions for the win lol)
- Puntang Galle
- Robbie, Clark , Ysrael, Wally and Mervs were all wearing red shirts lol (Boyband !!!!)
- Extremely sloppy performance to finish with a 3-3 record
- Daming noob plays kasi at parang walang gana lumaban yung deck amf
- 9 rounds dapat siya but nag drop na ko nung 6th round dahil...
- Kelangan pa pumasok sa office :( Pero bago yun
- Mass and Dinner at Shang :D
- Hatid sa Ayala station then punta na Q Ave
- (insert rain here again)
- @work: Abay monits (at least pwede na mag barge) and other stuff
- Free Cheeseburger meal and Hot Fudge c/o Ms. Z yayayayayayayayayyayayayay
- Lack of sleep + lotsa activities = Sabaw 8D

Hmmm...

Medyo malungkot ata ang August ko...

Jet (my QC buddy who I learned a lot from) will be resigining on the 8th to pursue his caregiver carreer in the UK. Floyd (one of my original team mates from Smackdown) will also be resigning, along with other Tech Leads to try their luck in Singapore. Ansel will be going back to the US this coming 17th. Aa will be leaving for his job aboard a Cruise Ship on the 25th :(

Those things plus one other thing that's I guess been keeping me sad for quite some time now

Haaay..

Well I guess there are some things to look forward to. I think. I hope

Owel

I guess my current music says a lot of things that's kept inside me

aaand I really need to sleep... trabaho nanaman mamaya eh =/

Sat, 19 Jul 2008 21:06:49 GMT

Hi

Hmmm.... I guess it's been a while since I last made a post. Over the past few weeks though, there were a LOT of times wherein I sooooooooo wanted to post but laziness/stress/sucky net/lack of ideas/kasabawan and other factors get the better of me. But since I have to stay awake 'til around 7AM today (so that my body clock won't get ruined) I guess I don't have an excuse not to post.

So what have I been up for the past few weeks (or I think it's close to a month since I last posted)

- Got too meet up with some balikbayan friends of mine. Punky (my thesismate) came home nung mga first week of July. Had dinner with him sa Greenbelt together with some other blockmates I haven't seen for some time (namely: Jamie, Char, Den and Ate Lindz). It was really nice getting to see all of them. Lotsa kwentuhan and catching up of course. Punky only stayed here for a week I think since he was just on a 'business trip' hahaha Ayaw pa kasi mag da moves kay 10 % crush hahaha.

Ansel's (my HS 'kada) also back. He's been here for 3 weeks now I think. I try to make it a point to meet up with him at least once a week. Kahit ikot-ikot lang sa GH tapos Magic (just like the good ol' days) ok na. We had lunch together with some HS friends (Aa,Bebe Pauie and Mommy Tina) the first week he got back. Also played together sa Eventide pre-release last week (more on that later). Ayun... As usual, mamimili nanaman ng sangkatutak na DVD un bago bumalik hehehe I think around 2nd week of August pa siya uwi so there's still plenty of time to do stuff with him. At masaya ako dahil sa pinasalubong niya na Kitkat :)

- Been a little extra busy at the office for the past few weeks. July is the Microsoft's first fiscal month of the year so it was up to us the Quality Team to once again come up with plans/actions/campaigns for this coming quarter. Adding pressure to that is the fact that the site didn't perform as well as it did the previous quarter so I guess we had a handful of extra things to do/talk about/rant about.

Daily stuff at the office continue to be SSDD for most parts (complete with morning sessions of yosi/coffee/Magic/ranting/chismis). Monitor/coach/upload for four days, VA on the fifth day. And I think I've gotten the hang of doing the VA although I still take forever to bucket the SR's.

Also getting used to my new team and they seem ok. Although I still prefer handling Naruto. I guess that's one bias that won't go away.

I'm really glad to have cool people around me at the office. Makes work seem less stressful than it actually is :)

Thanks to Dette, Manna and Master Rubee sa mga libre and a kudos to my agents Richey, Darryl and Jayson for winning stuff at the anual Quarterly Awards :)

Moving on...

- Also got to meet up with my Carmine teammates a few weeks back. Humabol na lang ako dahil nag pre-release ako nung umaga pero ok pa din. Videoke galore sa Timezone (dahil sobrang daming tao sa Red Box) and then dinner afterwards. It was all good :)

One thing I realized after doing Videoke with these guys: me + singing = fail. But Aizelle sucks more than I do hahahaahahaha

- Magic naman. Played in two tourneys over the past month. Sa Regional Qualifiers and sa Eventide Pre-release. I think I did relatively well in both tourneys. Used RDW (Booba build) during the Regionals. Started really bad losing 2 consecutive rounds. But then my deck got its groove on and I went on to win 6 straight rounds (going 3-0 against faeries which really, really made my day) to finish 17th overall (one of my best finishes in a tourney this big) with a 6-2 record. Mmmmm cheese :D For the pre-release, I was quite disappointed with the extremely crappy cards I got. Seryoso. Lahat ng pwedeng crap-rare sa Eventide nakuha ko ata hahahaha Owel. Still managed to build a good-enough Limited deck to finish with a 3-1 record. Again -_-(4 rounds lang pag pre-release and you get a booster pack for every round won). Owel, third round jinx talaga eh =/

Another Qualifier will be held this coming August 3. The deck I'll be using (siyempre RDW) pretty much plays itself and even a newbie in Magic can use that deck easily sooo I'll just help my friends out playtest their decks. Sana na lang swertihin sa matchups at walang makaharap na G/X Ramp. Auto-lose eh =/

Hmm what else...

- Saw the new Batman film kanina with AE folks sa Greenbelt. Ok naman yung movie. If there's one thing I want to point out is that it's not really for kids. Medyo dark yung film and it deals with issues that kids 10 below might not understand yet. It was a little bit long pero keri lang. We then headed to Gerry's (kung saan hindi na muna kami kakain) to have dinner.

Good movie + Good company + pwede na na food = :D

Sa uulitin (pag nag showing na yung John Lloyd fim! nyahahahaha) :D

- Speaking of movies, been seeing a LOT of movies for the past couple of weeks. Walalang.

Trinoma/Shang + Lunch/Dinner (or both) + Movie = :DDDDD

Hmmm...

- Mom has finished undergoing her radiation treatments (3 weeks un araw araw siya nagpupunta hospital) and I guess the results were ok since she doesn't have to see her doctor for the next 3 months.

I guess the past few months have been really tough physically, emotionally and financially for us but I'm happy to say that at the end of it all, I think we still managed :D

I realized over the past few weeks its that fact na mahirap mag palaki ng magulang nyahahhaha

- Speaking of financial issues, ang dami ko gustong bilin D: Ayoko muna gumasta dahil madami gastos sa bahay (bills are ebul D: ). Pero that moment na lumuwag-luwag na, parang gusto ko mag shopping :D

- Eventhough everything seems to be steady, I guess I can't entirely say that I'm happy. Don't get me wrong I AM fine with the way things are but may kulang eh. (Siyempre hindi pwedeng walang ganitong segment sa mga post ko). I guess I really DO miss ~~talking with~~ her. A lot actually. For the past few weeks, I barely got to talk with her (dahil ala nga YM sa office at busy pag weekends, kahit nga weekdays eh) and I guess this is something na parang hinahanap hanap ko. I'm sure you'll agree with me na if there's something that honestly makes you happy, tapos biglang mawala yun, hahanap-hanapin mo talaga eh :(

Ah ewan

Sometimes I think I tend to become selfish and only thing of what I want or want to happen, without considering other people's feelings.

Pero... Haay..

Anyway, tama na drama hehehe

- Quotable quotes from the past weeks:

"Paano mo malalaman kung gaano kalaki yun sa'yo?" - Manna

"Loving someone doesn't necessarily mean you have to be involved with them " - Jeri's status message

"Kung gusto, may paraan, kung ayaw may dahilan" - Nanay ni Aa

"Iba yung walang oras sa hindi gumagawa ng oras" - Maja

"Down to 4" - Magic words when you're using a red deck

"Tara bilisan natin mag yosi para bili tayo ng bili. Malay niyo maka Golden Stick tayo!" - Dette

"The only morality in life is chance" - Harvey Dent

Also, I intended to have pictures together with this post kaya lang tinamad ako. Ang daming nakatenga na pics dito na di ko maupload dahil sa katamaran nyahahaha

Today

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 03:09:23 GMT

Hi

I don't usually post on consecutive days but I really feel like making kwento hahaha wth

Soooo....

As the title of the post suggests, this post will be about what happened today.

I was expecting last night to just be a regular night at the office. Well for most parts, it was.

Arrived at the office at around 8:30 and went about my usual routine at work. As mentioned, I had to do at least 10 monits a day. I was right on track as I already uploaded 31 monits and I had to do 9 more. Again, everything was just like the other day's. SSDD. I managed to finish my quota for the day and was just waiting for Manna and Jeri (they come in at 5 AM) for our usual morning routine.

Manna and I s already logged her in and set up her Outlook. As she was reading her emails, Master Rubee (our direct supervisor, we call her master hahaha) approached me and asked me to come with her. I jokingly said "importante ba 'to master?" and to my surprise, she nodded. I thought that it was just going to be about the Hand's On Activity that were pushing for but somehow I felt otherwise.

We walked over to Jet's (my QC Buddy) station (Jet was just about to leave at that time). We sat, and she handed me a piece of paper. It was a Corrective Action (or CA for short). Apparently, the wonderful folks at IT caught me using a web-based messenger (Ebuddy, since Meebo and Yahoo! Web Messenger were already blocked). Attached on the CA was a screenshot of my desktop, with an Ebuddy window open. lol.

Well of course, in our business, and as stated in the company handbook, browsing any non-work related website is prohibitted. Use of any web messaging service is also not allowed but non-agents can use Windows Live Messenger.

So there.

Well, a CA means that hmmm I guess while the CA is in effect, I can't apply for a different position aaand it will go in my permanent record. At first I was a little scared that my job might be in jeopardy (that I might get demoted or something) but luckily, mukhang hindi naman. Also, another CA like this might spell a lot of trouble for me so I better be a good boy now :)

Medyo tanga tanga din ako. I should have closed it earlier since di ko din naman nakausap yung inaabangan ko. I was able to talk with Punky (who just got back from Indonesia) pero di naman siya yun talagang gusto ko'ng makausap eh.

Ang nakakahiya pa, IT sent the CA to our big boss, Boss Ira. Buti na lang medyo game siya. Nagkasalubong kami at nahiya talaga ako ng todo. Buti na lang medyo game siya and my bosses are really cool I guess. She told me that I should just imagine her shouting AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALVIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN !!! na yung parang sa Alvin and the Chipmunks lol

I guess its not the CA that really affected me, but the effects of not being able to use my YM at the office.

Ambabaw no?

I felt that I had the CA coming to me. Ever since I was an agent, I installed lotsa 'illegal' browsers into my PC's and used IM every single day I took calls. After becoming a non-agent, I guess I was a little bit complacent na di na ko mahuhuli. But I guess I was wrong.

Being able to chat on IM with a specific someone is really one of the few things I look forward to everyday. But I guess that will change. Sige na mababaw na pero walang pakialamanan haha Even though those daily YM conversations may not seem much, I guess for me, medyo big deal na siya. I was really thrilled when Jen told me about Meebo since one of my concerns when I got into this job was uhh I guess not being able to talk with her (mushiness much?) But srsly, totoo yan.

Like I mentioned above, everyday yan. Pag nag sesetup ako ng tools ko dati, kasama lagi ang isang Web Messenger (I'm sure di ako nag iisa dito hahahaha). Eventhough I knew it was risky, ok lang. Sometimes you're willing to do a lot of things for someone special. Though this does not seem much of a big deal haha I could do away without browsing for anything basta maka YM lang ako. Come to think of it, parang ang babaw ah hahaha

I thought that eversince I became a QC, di magiging problema ang pag gamit ko ng mga ganitong sites. Siguro nga masyado ako naging kampante

But still, ewan. Yun na yun. Titigil na'ko mag emote kumokorni na eh.

Well, I can still use my Windows Live Messenger (alvin.bartolome@hotmail.com, add me up hahaha) but I guess di na'ko magpupunta talaga sa mga 'non-work related websites' kahit na yung mga usual na pinupuntahan ko (AE boards, Manikineku, Brainburst etc.) at matakot naman ako na mag subok pa mag YM ulit hehehe

Well on a positive note, I guess mas makaka focus ako sa trabaho. Hmmm.. ewan.

Pero maninibago talaga ako nito. I really hate it when something breaks something I've been used to or something that is part of my routine. Pero wala din naman ako'ng ibang masisisi diba?

Boring days ahead at the office I guess =/

Tsaka I guess may weekends pa naman pero ewan

Pardon the patheticness (may gnun ba na word) lol

Gotta sleep now... tons of work to do later =/

Oh and I forgot to mention this in my last post: I rly miss usapness :(

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 03:00:03 GMT

Hi

Since I'm not yet sleepy and there's nothing to watch on TV (NBA Finals are over, congrats Boston!), I guess Imma post hehe

I'm not really feeling very creative so my post might not turn out like what I had in mind but what the heck hahaha

So what have I been up to for the past few weeks... Hmmm...

I guess I should start with the team building we had about 2 weeks ago.

It was ok I guess. Don't get me wrong, we had lots of fun but I guess a lot of us were just tired (from all the stuff at the office) kaya siguro parang ganun yung feeling ko. The trip going there I guess contributed a lot to this. Since we were kinda short on the budget side, sooo we ended up renting a jeep. Sooo the (both ways) was not really very comfortable. So ayun

Unlike the previous team building we had, there was actually a program and some games we had to participate in. We were divided into two teams (Team Pandamonium! (my team) and Pata Team lol) Pag pasensyahan na kung korni ang mga pangalan wala na lang pakialamanan hahaha Our team ended up losing almost all of the games hahaha but it was all good

After that, we also played a little bit of dodge ball and Pepsi-7up! Hahahaha At the end of the day, I guess we were all worn out pero ok lang.

That night, we also had a bit of charades (the two teams from the previous time we did this just added new members), lots and lots of uber-fun conversations, ghost stories (lol) and siyempre konting inuman. Again, because of the lack of funds, we didn't have the luxury of having our friend Jose Cuervo with us that night sooo we had to rely on Jeri to mix up some drinks. Most of the team slept at around 2 AM ata and it was just me, Manna, Jeri, Onats, Z and Jet who were up the whole night. We had a couple rounds of dug-song-an and again, non-stop kwentuhan. We ended the night singing a medley of Eraserheads songs (with matching MTV pa ng Huling El Bimbo hahahaha).

Some pics:

Siyempre dapat may ganyang pic na lagi hahaha

Kutilyon kuno

Face your fears ! hahahahaha

Charades Team A

Charades Team B

TM Logan, Boss Ira and me

Manna, me and Juwens

Bijoke!

:D

Ayun...

At the office, like before, SSDD for most parts. I was a little sad (ok, maybe not just a little) because the two teams I was previously handling (Team Naruto and Team MGS) were dissolved :( The reason: TM Geri (Naruto's TM) was tasked to handle a Tier 2 team and TM Joey Mark (MGS' TM who's ooooozing with Metrosexuality), opted to transfer to a different account. I've been handling these guys for at least 4 months now, and I guess I was really affected by this (siyempre pati sila affected din). I'm a handling a new team right now (Onat's previous team) and I guess they're ok pero siyempre may bias pa din ako sa luma ko'ng team lalo na sa Naruto. But like what TM Joey said, in our business, we should always be ready for changes. Sooo keri lang.

The task of doing the weekly Verbatim Analysis (VA) was also appointed to me. I don't really want to go into detail what this means but it takes a loooooooooot of work and time to finish it. Dagdang sakit ng ulo hahaha So starting lat week I tried to finish 10 monits, coaching and uploads per day para yung last day (Friday) ko, dedicated sa paggawa ng VA. Which reminds me, bukas na pala ang VA day for the week =/

Ang sarap pala nung feeling na malaman na naaprreciate ng mga agents mo hehehe :)

Moving on...

Magic naman hahaha Robbie and I played (James Milan was also there) played last Sunday sa GP: Trials. We both used similar decks; Red Deck Wins or RDW. Ok naman, finished with a 5-3 record. Not bad I might say. Started out 5-1 but I had to face Gerrard Camangon. FYI, he just happens to be the number one (statistically) player in the country and a somewhat a celebrity amongst the local Magic community. Well, as expected I lost. It was like my deck just rolled over and played dead and decided not to fight hahahaha Na starstruck. As a matter of fact, I still kept our match slip hahahaha Eventhough I lost, ok lang. He's a cool guy and after the match, he even gave me some tips on how to play against Kithkins (his deck). I guess RDW is a playable deck in Lorwyn Block. Matchup wise, it can go head to head against Faeries and Llark but has a tough time against 10 Commandments and Quick n' Toast decks. Curse those Primal Commands and Kitchen Finks'. According to Robbie, another bad matchup is against Doran decks.

Against the decks I played against, top decking was the key. I beat faeries, Lark, Gobs and even a commandments deck but lost horribly to a Quick n' Toast. I thought Kithkins would be an easy matchup but I was unluckily paired up with a very good player.

Shining moments during the GP:T : Robbie beating JT Porter (winner of Grand Prix Manila 2 years ago), James beating a Faerie deck. As for me, I realized that sideboarding does win games. Guttural Response has got to be one of my favoritest cards now as it allowed me to Alphastrike for 13 damage against a Llark deck. That felt really, really good hahahaha

As for the deck's MVP, its gotta be this card :)

Sorry about all that gibberish hahahaha

Hmmm...

Mom's doing ok I guess. She has been going to St. Lukes everyday (and she has to do it for 3 more weeks) to undergo radiation treatment. Aside from that, she seems normal. Hopefully her body reacts positively to the treatment and whatever Cancer cells were left would have been killed.

Ayun...

There are just some things that you have been so excited about or you have been sooo looking forward to na kung kelan nandyan na siya, you suddenly don' t know kung anu mararamdaman mo or kung anu dapat gawin. And even if you did know what to do, certain circumstances won't allow you to do anything :( (I don't think that made sense lol)

Haaay... Ewan

I guess ever since the incident with my mom, I've been feeling differently. Ionno. And I guess a lot of aspects in my life have been affected.

Like what I said before, thank God for friends.

Special thanks go out to Maja (alam mo na yun) and to people from the Qualty team . Oh and of course her :3

It's hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen. But it's harder to stop when you know it's everything you've always wanted.

I forgot where I got this (I think it came from Thea) but for some reason, the moment I saw that line, I was able to relate to it and decided to make it my shout-out for my Friendster profile. Ionno. I've been feeling weird for the past few days because of a lot of reasons and this is one thought that has always lingered in my mind. You can also add the chorus of Migraine to that.

And right now, I don't really want to expect anything. I don't wanna end up feeling disappointed again =/ and there are some things I'd like to react to but feeling ko wala akong karapatan =/

Ah ewan... Like what I said before, kerihin na lang :)

Pardon the long nonsense hahaha

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 19:08:55 GMT

Hi

I usually answer these kinds of things and re-post them on Friendster or Multiply (lol) when I'm bored at the office or here at home. Ionno, for some reason, I've been wanting to post a LOT of stuff but for some reason, everytime I want to do so, bigla akong tinatamad lol

Sooo... eto na lang muna hahaha Feel free to repost or whatever... This was taken from Jy's Multiply (we used to re-post each other's surveys before and laugh at our cheesy answers hahahahahaha)

1) Do you think your mature?

+ Sometimes

2) Have you kissed somebody in the last 5 days?

+ Aside from my mom and my little cousin, beso lang with friends

3) Who was the last persons house you went to besides your own?

+ I think it was Jeff's.

4) Miss someone?

+ You bet I do

5) What’s on your mind?

+ A whole effin lot but for most parts, it's the week ahead and the work that has to be done. Plus something else. (Anu daw?)

6) Is there something you could’ve done to make your last relationship work?

+ Be more mature I guess

7) Do you like someone right now?

+ Yep :)

8) Listening to music?

+ Yessir

9) What are you doing tomorrow?

+ obsess some more on things i cannot control.lol - hahaha panalo sagot mo Baks, as for me, sleep all day and go to the office at night (that's new)

10) What is your favorite flavor ice cream?

+ Coffee Crumble

11) Anything annoying you right now?

+ Kinda

12) Favorite color?

+ Red, Green

13) What did you do last night?

+ Slept

14) Who did you ride in a car with last besides your family?

+ Hmm... Si Robbie ata

15) Have you ever bought anything from a sex shop?

+ Errr no

16) What’s the color of you’re shirt you are wearing?

+ White

17) What did you do Sunday?

+ Went to Galle with Robbie para maglaro sa GP: Trials

18) Do you have any bruises?

+ None

19) What were you doing at noon yesterday?

+ Roaming around Shang

20) How long does it take you to get ready?

+ It depends hahaha

21) Have you been outside today?

+ Yep

22) The last text you received on your cell was from?

+ Jeff

23) What did it say?

+ Asking me when we can meet up so that I can get the cards I need from him

24) Last movie you watched?

+ Kung Fu Panda

25) What do you miss?

+ A lot of things (safe answer much?)

26) Are you wearing any jewelry?

+ Wala akong kaartehan sa katawan... Isang nanlilimahid na branklet lang

27) Last person you hugged?

+ My little cousin Nicole

28) The last place you went to?

+ Galle

29) Who/What made you upset today?

+ Primal Command and drawing too many lands on top-deck mode :( + something else

30) Do you sing in the shower?

+ Haha yeah

31) Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?

+ Yep... but it was a looooooong time ago *sings Back to You by John Mayer*

35) If you could fix things with anyone who would it be and why?

+ To be honest, I'm not really sure

36) Has anyone ever told you they’re in love with you?

+ I think so

37) What color are your bedroom walls?

+ White ata

38) What should you be doing right now?

+ Umm sleeping?

39) Do you get along with your parents?

+ Ok lang

40) Whats the car of your dreams?

+ A Mini Cooper like the ones in The Italian Job

41) Ever wanted to be a teacher?

+ I've thought about it before

42) Ever been stuck in an elevator?

+ Yep

43) What do your cousins call you?

+ Bin, Kuya Alvin, Chu

44) First thing you notice in the opposite sex?

+ How they smile (I'm a sucker for this one) at like what Jy said before, overall impact hahahaha

45) Favorite physical feature on yourself?

+ Uhh... ewan ko... hair siguro. Madami nag sasabi maganda daw buhok ko

46) Has anyone ever told you they like you more than a friend?

+ Maybe (with the pakipot factor hahahaha) :)

47) What did you last eat?

+ SOFTBATCH COOKIES <3

48) What are you looking forward to?

+ Seeing her, another weekend, sleep, seeing friends who have been out of the country

49) Have any tattoo’s?

+ Wala eh

50) Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?

+ Nope

Good times, Bad times

Fri, 30 May 2008 19:25:30 GMT

Hi

First off, I would like to dedicate this post to my Tita Tess who passed away last week. She has been fighting Breast Cancer for the past 3 years. She was a very good mother, wife and teacher.

Like what Master Rubee said (her lola passed away last week as well), it's cliche but we know that our loved ones are in a better place right now.

We'll really miss her though :(

I really hate going to wakes and I have no plans to go to one for say, the next 50 years or so.

Moving on,

Mom had her Hysterectomy close to two weeks ago. She's doing fine right now (except that she still has difficulty moving around too much due to the wound from the surgery) and based from the results of the biopsy from the operation, the Cancer was concentrated in her uterus (which was already removed) and it didn't seem to spread to the lymph nodes or other parts of her body. I'm not really sure what the next steps are but I think she still has to go through radiation treatments just to be sure and to try to eliminate whatever Cancer cells are left in her body.

Again, I'm just really hoping for the best. And once again, thanks to everyone who showed their concern :)

What else have I been up to for the past weeks .... hmm ...

Been going to the movies for the last 2 weekends. Got to see the new Indiana Jones film, What happens in Vegas, and Sex and the City. Out of the three flicks, I enjoyed Sex and the City most I guess (uy bakit kaya? hahaha)

I also finished watching Clannad. It was ok, with its fair-share of kilig moments but I still like Kanon better (one big reason is that Ayu is teh <333 ). I was so irritated the other day though because I unintentionally read what was going to happen in After Story (the second part of Clannad afaik). Owel. Panonoorin ko pa din siya hehe

Hmm what else...

Been hanging out with the Alimol boys during the weekends lately. Saturday is Magic day and Sunday is DOTA day. I guess its been like that for me for the past few months (with the exception a handful of Saturdays).

Magicwise, still trying to decide on what deck to use for Grand Prix: Manila. The format is Llorwyn Block Constructed and for that I have 3 choices so far: RDW (Red Deck Wins), Mono-Black Rogues (provided I get to borrow some Bitterblossoms) or Kithkins. Really want to play during GP: Trials, but most of my weekends for this month are already booked =/ GP Manila will be held sa August pa, but I really need to practice this early pa lang. I'll also give it a shot at the qualifiers for the Nationals but again, I don't know what deck to use (My choices are between RDW or Elves since Standard ang format) :( Owel

James (cbl) also sponsored a Shadowmoor draft last week. The participants were: Me, James, Borgs, Allen, Ian, Earl and Laryll. Sayang bitin ng players at ng oras pero masaya hehehe Sa uulitin

Pics here (James' Multiply).

At the office, its mostly SSDD. We were supposed to hire 3 new Quality Coaches but because of the ramp down (more on that a little later on), this did not push through. Doing interviews was really fun though (although really time consuming). Pretending to be an agent for the applicant to coach was really fun. Me, Manna and Jairus were fighting over the honors to be called the best actor and we were really trying to outdo each other hahaha. Pero kabog kami kay Manna. Umiyak eh. Instant winner lol

Now about the ramp down. The account had a little bit of a ramp during the release of GTA: IV last month as they were expecting for an increase in call volume. Fortunately (or unfortunately ?), there were very little problems related to the said game which lead to less calls. Also, according to a press-release, Microsoft has improved the server capacity for its Xbox Live service, which again lead to less calls. Because of this, several agents have to be transferred to a different account (mostly the newer ones). This also affected the non-agents as (according to chismis), several of our TM's might be transferred to other accounts as well. I'm glad that the Quality Team won't get affected. So ayun. Chika lang. Pero medyo na demoralize ang mga agents dahil feeling nila baka mawala yung account. Wag naman sana :(

Boss Onats raised a very good point the other day. Sometimes, you just really want to ask yourself why you even bother. I guess for me, this not only applies to work-related stuff but to other matters as well.

Oh and we really need to push that Hand's on Activity were implementing...

Haay...

Max Brenner's Marshmallow cake, Teriyaki Boy's Tempura Maki, Sbarro's Zitti and Mcdo's Cheeseburgers are all <3

I want Twister Fries though :(

Some things to look forward to:

- Team building on the 7th (yessss, finally makaka bakasyon din kahit papaano)
- Ansel's going home this July yay!
- Hopefully getting to meet-up with her :)

I guess out of those three, its the third one I'm really looking forward to :)

I'm really happy for Den. She finally had one of her lifelong dreams (no kidding) come true as she got to watch a L'arc concert Live (she went to HK just for this) and got to see Hyde in person XD

Miss ko na Manikineku :( Labas ulit tayu minsan guys ! At sorry kung laging busy :(

Ayun...

The chorus from the song Migraine by Moonstar 88 asks really good questions. But then again... hmm.. nvm.. Keep holding on na lang (Thanks to Aa for making this my LSS for liek the past week -_-)

I guess for the past few weeks, I've really done a lot of thinking and I started to realize a lot of things (sawi moments much?).

True enough, as the saying goes, the best things in life are indeed free. Fun conversations with friends, getting to sleep for more than 8 hrs, top-decking a Flame Javelin when your opponent has less than 4 life left, eating good food and those daily YM conversations (I guess ito ang pinakamatimbang <3 sorry if I'm starting to be a bad convo though :( ) are just some of the things that make life much easier to bear no matter how sucky things may be.

I guess now, things seem to be better and I just hope that no more bad things happen (I've had my fair share of these for the past month, so I think I've had enough) :)

Thu, 15 May 2008 00:45:45 GMT

Hi

Two days ago was probably one of the worst days of my life

After coming home from work, I expected that it was just going to be one of those regular mornings wherein I eat breakfast with my family, browse or watch TV a little bit, take a bath and then go to sleep.

But that day was different

Upon entering the front door of my house, I saw my mom. Her eyes were still puffy, and she obviously just finished crying.

At that moment, I felt a sudden chill inside me.

"Anak halika dito, may sasabihin ako sayo. Bad news"

I knew what she was going to say

One of my biggest fears has come true.

My mom has Cancer.

Her doctor called her that morning after she got the results from the biopsy the night before. And the biopsy from her previous operation showed that she had Uterus Cancer.

For some reason, right after her operation last week right after the doctor talked with me about how unhappy she was with the results, I had a feeling that it might end up this way. And I guess at that point she already knew as well but she just wanted to confirm by having a biopsy.

It's just so painful knowing that someone you love, someone close to you, someone who has always been there all of your life, your mother, has this disease.

I literally cried myself to sleep that day. I really didn't know what I could and should do.

My dad also didn't take the news very likely. He has already one of his aunts and her sister to this disease and he just broke down after knowing this. He also is not in tip-top shape physically because of the stroke he suffered a year and a half ago.

Like what I mentioned in my previous post, I felt that it was my responsibility to be strong for everyone's sake.

It's tough but I'll try.

We're also not a very rich family, but hopefully we can manage through all the necessary operations and procedures my mom has to go through.

She will have a Hysterectomy next Wednesday and I'm just really hoping for the best. Hopefully after that, things will get better and the disease hasn't spread yet to other parts of her body.

She's a very strong person and I know she won't give up that easily.

My tita, who was also diagnosed with Cervical Cancer 12 years ago fought through the disease and is now very much healthy. Hopefully a similar situation will happen here.

Everything seems to be normal as of the moment and like what my mom said, there's no point in being sad and being pessimistic about the situation. And I agree with her 100 %.

Our family has been through very tough challenges but I guess this is the biggest one we've faced so far.

I just hope that in the end, everything will turn out ok.

Thanks for all those who showed their concern (especially to her <3) . It makes these kinds of situations much easier to bear.

Sun, 11 May 2008 19:26:23 GMT

Hi

My mom was hospitalized last week for to have a minor operation. She was to undergo a DNC ba yun or Raspa in tagalog.

For some reason, it was heavy on me. I'm not really a big fan of people getting hospitalized especially if its someone I know who will ge confined. And of course, mas malala if it's someone close to you. It was actually the first time I saw my mom get hospitalized. She rarely gets sick (except for a few colds now and then). And I think this was the first time she was hospitalized since she gave birth to me.

I had to take a leave from the office dahil walang magbabantay sa kanya sa hospital at sa dad ko sa bahay (see, na stroke siya 2 yrs ago, he's doing ok now but still, ayaw namin iniiwan siya magisa ng matagal lalo na pag gabi). And I'm really glad that I'm a non-agent already. Makes it easier to file for leaves. Well sorta. Feeling ko kung agent pa din ako, naku, ubos ang occurences ko nito.

I never really thought I'd be in that situation wherein I was standing in the operating room waiting for the operation to finish and for what the doctor had to say. It was not a very good experience trust me. The operation itself only lasted for less than an hour then she had to stay at the recovery room for around 2 hrs.

After the operation, her OB (who looked a lot like Dr. Diaz) told me the results of what happened. She wanted to speak with my dad but since I was the only one who was there, I had to take in the news. Apparently, it didn't turn out as smoothly as she expected it to be and she was not too happy about it. A biopsy will be conducted from the results of the operation and I'm just really hoping and praying that there are no complications and everything turns out negative.

The doctor recommended that my mom go through a Hysterectomy irregardless of how the biopsy turns out.
She'll go back to the OB on Friday and then the Hysterectomy ASAP.

I was really holding back my tears several times while I was in the hospital and at home. I guess I didn't want anyone to see me crying. It was really effin had though. For some reason, I felt like it was my responsibility to stay strong for everyone's sake (well at least everyone in my family).

Financially, I'm just glad I got her a Medicard from the office. Pero right now, tag tipid mode.

Again, I'm just hoping and praying for the best. Especially with the test results and how the Hysterectomy turns out.

Moving on...

Congratulations to my former Smackdown Teammates Reign, Kuya Chris and Kuya Ricky for making it to Tier 2 :)

Work-wise, everything is SSDD. There is a drive for everyone to lower their MPI's and I guess this is what everybody is focused on. At least for the next two weeks or so.

The Quality Team also has a planned team-building at the end of the month. We plan to go to Galera. Sana matuloy 'to. Really looking forward to this :) And hopefully by this time, everything's ok with my mom na din.

Felt feverish for the past week most probably due to the retarded weather we're having. Sobrang init sa umaga, sabay bubuhos ang ulan sa gabi.

I just hate it when the net screws up and then when it does work again, the person you wanna talk with si no longer OL -_-

Haaay....

Playing Magic and DOTA every weekends have really been one of my major distractions as of late. Add good company to that mix, and I guess it's enough to cheer me up from time to time.

Quotable Quote from Robbiebich:
"Wag ka magalala, Menthol yinoyosi ko :) "

Di siya nakakatawa, pero given the context when he said it, sobrang benta hahahahaha

Also got to hang-out with AE peeps last week to watch Ironman (w/c was cool btw) as well as do a little catching up with JB and Maja.

The 5AM habit with Manna, Jeri and Dette (and sometimes Boss Onats and Mark) is also something to look forward to everyday

Thank God for friends

And then there's those daily IM conversations that never fail to make me smile :)

2 years worth of Airship Days = <3 Thanks for everything :3

Well for now, keri lang and hopefully, things turn out ok

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 01:30:06 GMT

hi

Hmmm...

For some reason, I felt emo for a while last night. Not really sure why (or may I am but I'm just too lazy to realize and/or admit it)

But then, I realized (after reading emails and checking my trackers) that there was still a lot of work to be done for the week so it was not the brightest idea to feel down

aaaand that won't really help my inefficiency

Haay ewan...

At least I got 6 exemptions this week from my allocations so that means I can somewhat afford to slack-off a little bit. Hehehe

Damnit... Tinangalan ng USB access lahat ng PC sa office... Nakakaasar... Di na ko makapagsave ng mga kailangan or makapagupload ng pictures at maglipat ng kanta... Grrrr... nakakaasar talaga mga chu-chu... Owel... Kelangan magawan ng paraan 'to

Ugh... Sana makita ko / may magbalik nung mga Ack forms na nawawala... Nakakatamad umulit at mag pa pirma -_-

Borrowed Ate Jack's iPod kanina and I was happy to see that she had one of my favoritest songs before (and may 'til now). It's Jillian by Spongecola. There was one period in college (thanks to Char, and to the
P 40 pirated CD I bought) na naadik ako sa songs nila. Ewan. Parang nahatak lang ako or sumtin. Walalang.

Nasenti ata ako ahahhahaha

Ang </3 kasi nung last line eh :( And I'm a really big sucker for senti songs with lyrics na nakakarelate ako kahit papaano (ang drama lolz)

Reminder to self: Don't keep your Friendster and Multiply accounts open when you let your little cousin use the PC.

Taho in the morning ( + morning sessions with fellow QC's) is really, really good :)

I guess there's always a reason to smile naman eh.

Soooooo

keri lang